Rest In Peace Cameo D. Harvey "Young Chaos"
I've been thinking about my boy Cameo "YC." I feel like I really need to get this off my chest.
He's been like a brother to me, him and Jordan "J-Murda." Back when I was attending South View, they both always had my back. Whenever I needed help with anything they were there for me, all I had to do was look at them both and they knew something was wrong, and the first thing Cameo would ask me was, "What's crackin? Who got an issue?" I guess after being with them so long they know me really well.
Cameo passed away at South View High School on Friday, May 22, 2009 due to respiratory failure. (asthma attack) That same day I was skipping class with my friend Lorna and I'll never regret it for one second because while I was skipping I met up with him in the hall approx. 5 minutes before his attack. We had a conversation about his music career. We then went off our separate ways and no sooner then that, an announcement had went off saying that the teachers needed to keep students outta the hallway where the front office was. Knowing the kinda people Lorna and I are, we went straight toward the office. We got to that hall and saw a buncha teachers crowding the floor. I couldn't make out who the person on the floor was but the person was shaking all over the floor and Lorna and I got escorted back to class by a teacher.
That weekend my family and I were going to Topsail Island. My friend Amanda came along with us and her phone kept receiving text messages saying a student at South View had died. I didn't know what to say or how to feel because I didn't know who the person was. Plus, when Amanda would text back asking who died, they would reply saying they didn't know. I finally returned home and when I got to school the next morning almost every single person I saw was crying and wearing these custom shirts that read "R.I.P. Cameo D. Harvey." My eyes started to swell up and tear. My mind started racing... I saw him dieing! Could I possibly have been the last person to talk to him? Could I have been able to help him if I had continued to walk with him? Maybe it wouldn't have made a difference. But still, there was this urge in me that wanted to blame myself. That whole day I cried and cried because I didn't have any other way to express my feelings. When school was over, I went to the football field and screamed at the top of my lungs. I yelled at God and cursed at Him. I questioned Him and asked Him why this had to happen! He was only 15! He was like my right hand, what else could I do? I know you're probably thinking, "This girl is crazy, she cursed at God!?" Yes, I did. I was angry, hurt, confused, and mixed with so many emotions. To make matters worse, Jordan was on house arrest and suspended from school. He wasn't even aloud to attend the Wake. It broke my heart because even though Jordan is a C^rip and Cameo was a Bl00d, they were the best of friends, they were brothers till the end. I made it a point to spend as much time as I could with Jordan and comfort him because he couldn't leave his house, and I am in walking distance.
I was told at Cameo's funeral that God has a plan for everyone and he had a reason for Cameo dieing when he did. I didn't want to accept it because I was hurt but, after a couple months went by I started to think back, and maybe that person was right. Maybe God did have a reason. Even though I don't know that reason, I'm not going to stop believing in him. I repented and asked God to forgive me for cursing at Him and saying things I shouldn't have.
Well, that's all I have to say about that for now because "I think I got something in my eye." There tearing up for some reason...
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